Saturday, September 18, 2010

One Year Ago Today


One year ago today, I took a pregnancy test in the restroom at my work*. I was in disbelief as I stared at that little plus sign. I was shaking as I went back to work because I was so excited to come home and tell your dad. I asked my boss if I could leave early (obviously, I had to tell her why) so that I could come home and surprise your dad. You see, we had lots of company that weekend (uncle Josh, his friend Jordan, Scott and Stephanie) so I needed to get home and tell him without everyone around.

I left work and rushed to Target where I bought a card and a bib that said 'i heart daddy.' When I got home, I wrapped up the test and the bibs and when your dad walked through the door I gave him the card and the gifts. It took him a minute to figure out the test. Chloe, he was so happy he cried (which I've only seen him do one other time...when we found out your Nana had a brain tumor).

I will never forget the day I found out we were going to get to experience your presence. I say prayers for you every night and will continue for the rest of my life.

I want to give you the world and teach you everything there is to know. Unfortunately, sweet girl, that is impossible. If I had to choose one thing...I think I want to ask God to help me to show you happiness and love. I pray for your happiness...I pray that you never want for the material things that will only pacify your desires...I pray that you know true LOVE for others and that you receive more LOVE in your lifetime than you could ever return (but please try). Chloe, God is LOVE and I believe if you have It in your life you will find true happiness.

We love you, Miss Chloe!

*Note to self: never ever, ever, ever take a pregnancy test at work.

Wreck 'Em Tech! Let's saw em off. Longhorns are going down.

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